I Must Not Fear. Fear is the Mind Killer.

Some days I reach for words and they’re just…not there. That’s it, I think, no writing today.

But generally, that’s just a lie I tell myself in an effort to feel better.

What I really mean by there are no words is that I do not have it in me to deliver words the way that I think they should be delivered. That there’s something I want to say that I cannot render adequately. There is something I want to say that is at odds with what I’m trying to say.

Often, it is because I am scared of a scene, of a sequence, of a sentence.

And that’s cool. When that happens, I don’t need to write a sentence. I can start with a word. Just one goddamn word. And, most days, if I’m willing to risk that much, everything else follows along.

Not perfect, and not in the way I was thinking in the beginning, but there are words.

There are always words, when I look for them.

I really should stop using fear as an excuse to avoid deploying words.